Not to complain...

Poor Jillian. :( She's really uncomfortable after feedings during the day and I feel so helpless when she screams and there's nothing that soothes her. She was so miserable on Friday afternoon that we took her to Dr. Harris... so for now I'm on a pretty strict diet trying to figure out what (if anything) is causing her to be so fussy. That means no dairy, no fatty foods, no citrus... basically I've been eating lean meat, rice and potatoes, with some veggies (like carrots and peas) and water to drink. It doesn't seem to be making much of a difference, though. Well, maybe, it's hard to say. Saturday she did pretty well, although she screamed the entire ride home from the beach. :( Talk about feeling helpless!! Then yesterday, she did okay all day until around 4:00... then was inconsolable until almost 8:30 that night. I feel so bad for her!! So I'm wracking my brain trying to figure out what I could have possibly ate that could have affected her. Was it the tiny amount of butter I had on a bagel on Saturday afternoon?? Was it the chicken nuggets I had? The cinnamon raisin bagel (no butter on that) on Sunday morning? Sigh... how can something that's supposed to be so good for her (breast milk) be making her so miserable?? I'm honestly thinking about taking Dr. Harris' next suggestion of pumping for a few days and trying Alimentum (a formula) to see if that makes any difference. I might go one more day with this diet, though. I guess I'm just giving myself a guilt trip. I feel like I'm being selfish by wanting to try the formula because I'm miserable myself with this diet (and listening to her scream, for that matter). What if it's not anything I'm eating and it's reflux or colic or just gas? What if I pump and I lose my milk supply? I know I'm probably making too much of this and I'm just hormonal and tired, I just wish I wouldn't always second guess myself like this. :(